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    Finally free from the raft, Kai White is ready for whatever S.H.I.E.L.D throws at her. Or so she thought. When Kai is thrown into the Avengers Academy, a training school for the newest Avengers, she has no choice but to accept her date of forever being trapped. She fights to hide her emotions, to hide her back round, to hide her powers. But nothing ever goes her way. But maybe, just maybe, Kai will come to see that this Academy isn't as bad as she thought. Maybe she'll find out that her powers are stronger than she thought. Maybe she can't look away from two blue eyes super-soldiers. Maybe that feral feeling that's she's fought so long to keep hidden will finally come out.

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    Six months after the fall of SHIELD and HYDRA, Sam is no closer to finding Bucky and he is growing more desperate by the day. Bucky feels like he's stuck in a free-fall, not able to trust anyone including himself. When he shows up to Sam's house unannounced one night, Sam scrambles to catch him and bring him home before it's too late.

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    “Are you here to kill me?” Sam flexed his hand around the knife, adjusting his stance slightly.

    “If I was, you’d be dead,” Bucky stepped back, leaning against the wall on one shoulder in an attempt to seem less like a…well, murderer, despite his words.

    “Oh yeah? How has that gone for you in the past?” Sam countered.

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    Loki considered himself blessed when he was given a new life to live, a life full of power like he had longed for. A kingdom built from his past contained the hopes of a better future, and Loki carried the burden of that destiny to come true. All he needs are the Six Infinity stones and give them to Thanos, even if half of them were on Midgard.
    With the mission to collect the infinity stones came the inevitable exchange with the Avengers, and Loki couldn’t pray for a better opportunity than this. Revenge from them would be sweeter than a quick death. The plan was simple; Make himself an ally by tormenting them with a much bigger threat and take the stones in the end.
    He met many unknown faces throughout the ordeal, including a certain Sorcerer supreme, but as the time passed, these faces and people weren’t supposed to get too close...
    So close that he began to doubt what was real and a lie in those past five years...

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    In the wake of a disastrous mission wherein Steve disassociated while in combat, he's forced to take a break. While on break, he finally figures out his future. After over a year of the Avengers urging him to only be a leader until he figures out his next steps, Steve makes choices for himself that really only surprise the man who was once called Bucky Barnes.

    It's the continuing adventures of the mentally healthy Avengers where Tony has a kid and went to therapy and and urges everyone he meets to make good choices and be happy.

    Featuring hot dogs, a kitten and Bucky Barnes trying to make friends while falling back in love.

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    After ten years spent as an assassin, Nova gets away from Hydra control, bringing with her very important information.
    Her only goal now is to avenge her mother's death, killing the man that ordered her execution. Tony Stark.
    Hydra's best lethal arm is on the loose, looking for revenge, and only the truth can stop her.
    She thinks she has a plan, unaware that the real enemy just got their eyes back on her.

    "There's always going to be pain. It was there before us and it will be there after us. Things do not change. We change.
    We work our way through, around and inside of it. Trying our best to survive, without losing ourselves."

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    HYDRA has gotten a sample of Steve's DNA and combined it with the Winter Soldier's. The Asset is given a new assignment...caring for the newest asset, a 15-month-old girl. As the months pass he must balance regaining his memories with protecting his pup and trying to escape. Then he is sent out against Captain America and his chance for escape brightened.
    Now he and his pup must learn how to cope with their trauma while becoming a proper family. Steve and the Avengers are now faced with some of their biggest challenges, helping Bucky Barnes recover from seventy years of abuse and trauma while trying to raise a young pup.

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    Two sisters. Two killers, trained from birth. One, a hero, an avenger. The other, the Red Rooms most valuable asset.

    After enduring four months of torture at the hands of HYDRA, you're liberated- and pissed. Your sister, Natasha Romanoff, wants to be happy families again. Her friend, Captain Pain in the Ass, thinks you should recover. But all you dream of is revenge. Revenge on the ones who tortured you. Revenge on those who stole you as a child. Revenge on your sister, for leaving you behind.

    Luckily for you, there's one other person set on the same path- James 'Bucky' Barnes. He's willing to track down those that escaped them, and take his own revenge.

    The two of you set off down an angry, twisted path to track down your captors. But will killing them really set either of you free? And will you ever be able to shake away the chains of your past truly, enough to ever open up to each other?

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    Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes have always been together, while the hand of fate has continued to do everything in her power to tear them apart. The game of cat and mouse that their enduring love has played over the decades persists against all odds, even sometimes (and often) to their own detriment.

    Unfortunately, Steve and Bucky have never quite been able to quit each other.

     

    ( basically, this is an extremely longform anthology piece, re-imagining every single step of Steve and Bucky's life as if they were lovers since childhood, from beginning to end(game) What follows is an exercise in tweaking canon to account for a decades-old love affair. It follows them from before the war, all the way up through endgame and a little beyond)

    !!! (this is a completed work, but it's extremely long so i will be posting one chapter per day until it's fully uploaded) !!!

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    After years living abroad, Bucky accepts a job offer to work for Stark Auto, and finally returns to the place he was sure he would never come back to.
    Enter the Rogers clan. Lizzie and Ben, the six-year-old twins who captivate his heart from the moment they meet, and their father, Steve Rogers, a man who was probably put on this earth to be Bucky’s utter demise. Steve is kind, generous, and caring, but he’s also everything Bucky has never wanted. Looking at him is hard, but looking away seems impossible.

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    In his attempts to make amends Bucky Barnes meets the headstrong and fiercely independent Mara and her endearingly stubborn Nonna, who are both unknowing victims of the Winter Soldier. As Bucky tries to help them despite Mara's mistrust of his motives, a hidden power emerges, putting them all in danger.

    Updates roughly every five days.

    Projected to have 250k words and finish in early 2022.
    Tags subject to change as the story progresses.

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    Bucky Barnes is lost. After going into hiding, he winds up in Las Vegas, struggling to reclaim his identity and craving human connection. He meets Alice, a dancer at Empire, who finds herself unable to ignore the mysterious blue-eyed stranger who has been coming into the club every night looking for her. Takes place between Captain America: The Winter Soldier and Civil War, but will bleed into Civil War, and possibly beyond that.

    Tags will be updated as I write. Content warnings are provided at the beginning of each chapter.

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    "He didn’t know how it had happened, how he’d gotten so comfortable around her, how he’d let her in. At first, everything was quiet, Bucky was adjusting to this new life, his pardon, his therapist, his amends, and everything they’d gotten him into. Sure there was Yori, but that was like one old man to another, and far more complicated. She was different."

    Your friendship with your neighbor across the hall, Bucky, blossoms as you get to know each other. Your relationship continues to unfold as the Flagsmashers make their mark on the world.
    (I essentially made a rom-com, and the events of tfatws is the subplot that gets introduced halfway through. I'm not sorry.)

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    It was a regular night when Peter Parker was taken. Fortunately, he had Earth's mightiest heroes looking for him. Unfortunately, his kidnappers get to work quickly. Will this reopen old wounds? What will our heroes do? Read to find out!!

    (summaries are hard but I hope this is an improvement)

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    Bucky Barnes has been plagued with dreams and nightmares of a life he had before this one. A life as a Jewish boy, with a twin sister during WW2. He never really felt quite "right" in the current time, body, name and mind he lived in. Even his family didn't feel right to him. Save for his sister, Rebecca.

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    Bucky is a script writer at Marvel Gaming Studios, a video game development company owned by none other than Tony Stark. He's one of the best in New York, and decides to put his life in a video game as a secret form of catharsis. What seems like any other Pitch Day turns out to be anything but when he comes across someone he may have known in his past life.

    Bucky doesn't know how, when, where he knows Steve Rogers... but he KNOWS him. Steve Rogers feels the exact same way. Can they piece together their lives in the past, and pick up where they left off? Or are they cursed to be forever reincarnated? Bucky is determined to get to the bottom of it.

    Whatever it takes.

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    After the flag smashers, Sam and Bucky don't see each other very much for a few months. Bucky uses the time to try tinder again, but he has trouble being intimate with people. He talks to Sam about it.

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    Bucky like all of the Avengers is broken. His husband, Peter, is always there to pick up the pieces and help. This time Bucky's not even there but the Winter Soldier seems to have come back

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    Yelena Belova and the word parentless were synonymous.

    It had been that way for years, it was true. She had no other blood down to her birth certificate which, whoever her father was never signed. Though Yelena would go on to find a true father in Alexi, the thought never crossed anyone's mind that she was anyone's daughter to claim.

    But that was a lie.

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    Bucky lied about bonding to Zemo to keep his new lover out of prison. And they should be able to bond...if only they had more time and Bucky wasn't already secretly bonded to someone else.

    So when Zemo tries something desperate, Bucky turns to the only Alpha he knows for help, dragging up a past he would rather remained forgotten.

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    It seems hypocritical causing more pain to himself, but Bucky finds himself deep in a self harm addiction. Whether it was a form of punishment he forced upon himself or whether it turned into the pleasureful high, he was in deep. Its only till Sam finds out that he realizes how far gone he is, and seeing Sam's horrified, heart broken face made him want to cry. Sam of course, moves in with Bucky to help him recover and leads to many nights of cuddling and crying over urges, movies as distractions, and occasional slip ups when Sam leaves him alone too long.

    Title: from the song Relax, Relapse - Get Scared

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    I found this is my notes after I watched Episode 8 of What If? And how I wanted Episode 9 to go.

    Episode 9 was still pretty cool though

    Basically I wrote a getting the team together™️ montage (you know those stereotypical ones in movies? Like those.)

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