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    Barry isn't coping and he wants control again in his life. He feels alone but there is one person who is there for him. SnowBarry!
    Trigger warning: panic attacks and self harm, please read with caution.

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    Severus Snape survived the War he never intended to survive. Still angry and bitter, the old Potions Master runs away from Britain in search of a mythical city of magical learning on the other side of the world. There he hopes he can finally rid himself of his past--from everyone he's ever known, from all of the obligations, trauma, and pain, and most especially, from her. The insufferable know-it-all who helped him survive.

    This is a story about healing, redemption, and love not just for Snape but for the woman who saved him and those who help both of them heal along the way.

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    15/18
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    103
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    Bruce Wayne hires a live in psychiatrist for his younger brother Jack.

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    12/?
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    96
    Kudos:
    66
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    958
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    hello!

     

    this is the first fanfiction i've written but i'm really excited about it.

    this fanfiction has very heavy triggers, so if the listed things trigger you please do not read.

    This story contains:
    -eating disorders
    -body dysmorphia
    -self harm
    -suicide attempts
    -blood
    -panic attacks
    -feederism
    -throwing up
    -abuse
    -drinking
    -sexual assault

    i will try my best to add the triggers to the beginning of each chapter if you would like to skip around.

    new chapter every friday!

    please enjoy! :)

    (lowercase intended)

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    Chapters:
    5/?
    Kudos:
    29
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    6
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    Set after battle for your beliefs

    Can Kalin make up for what he did when Jack keeps him on distance

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    1/2
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    Su She and the rest of the cultivators that survived Lan Xichen’s punishment form their own sect in secret, and kidnap Jin Guangyao to run it.

    A quick recap:

    Wei Ying was captured by Jin Guangyao during the siege of the Burial Mounds and was being held captive while everyone thought that he died destroying the Stygian Tiger Seal.

    Nie Huaisang had spies EVERYWHERE and managed to stop the deaths of Jin Ziuxan, Jiang Yanli, Wen Qing, Jin Ling, and Wei Ying, all while making it look like they had died.

    Lan Zhan purged Wei Ying of all resentful energy and they planted a new baby core in Wei Ying.

    Wei Ying was accepted into the Lan Sect by the Lan Elders because everyone figured out that Lan Zhan had married him back in the Cold Spring Cave.

    Lan Xichen called a meeting, leading everyone to believe it was to officially hand over the Jin Sect to Jin Guangyao because it was thought that Jin Ling was assassinated by Wen Ning, when in fact, it was a big “Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner” and it turned out to be everyone who was thought to be dead, including Nie Mingjue, who Wei Ying and Mo Xuanyu turned into a fierce corpse like Wen Ning.

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    Chapters:
    34/?
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    43
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    8832
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    As soon as it was done, he left.

    He left Dean's body and Dean left the room.

    He knew that he couldn't leave Cas like this, shouldn't leave Cas like this, but he couldn't stay, he couldn't look at him, couldn't touch him, couldn't see skin his own hands had left blemished and tainted and torn, couldn't see the angel violated and hurt and broken by his own body.

    The door unlocked the moment he had done what he'd come for, had taken and destroyed and left. It flew open, revealing Sam who he knew had been furiously beating against the wood while- while...oh God, he was gonna throw up.

    His brother looked shocked at the picture that unfolded in front of his eyes, his features contorted in disbelief and disgust at the crumpled and naked figure in the centre of Dean's mattress.

    Dean's mattress. In Dean's bed. In Dean's room.

    He felt sick.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
    Comments:
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    Kudos:
    428
    Bookmarks:
    69
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    This contains very sensetive topics plase skip if you are uncomfortable!!

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    Chara only has one goal in life: save the underground (and manage to have vengeance against humanity). But when she and Asriel try to save them, it ends in failure. But she can't give up on her brother, her parents, and the rest of her monster family, so she has to take the extreme low of having Frisk kill all the monsters--But it's justified because it'll all end up well in the end, right?

     

    No ships outside of Asgoriel (or Asriel, or Torigore), but feel free to ship whatever you want!

    (Rated Teen for some self-harm implications and self-hatred. Mostly in later chapters. Not really grafic, but it's there.)

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    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
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    7
    Bookmarks:
    3
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    Whenever I see DJ being so carefree around food, a pit in my own stomach forms.  Part of me wishes that I could be like that again, but it seems like it’s impossible.  DJ’s just sitting here, shoving down whatever food the caterers set out for us, and then there’s me... Feeling internally stoic, tense, and uncomfortable.  Just being in the presence of food is enough to give me the nervous jitters.

    **Follow the ups and downs of recovery through this collection of one-offs from the "Relief" AU... including "deleted" scenes from "Relief" & "You Have Come To The Right Place" or drabbles I've come up with that are are not in the exact timeframe of either. They are NOT in any particular order! Timelines will be signified in the author's notes.***

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    Chapters:
    11/?
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    1
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    Luffy (17) has moved to live with his big brother Ace (23), after being abused for years by his grandfather. He didn't really decide it. The judges in the court did. And while he was trying to get accustomed to his new life, having in mind his unusual ability to see and interact with ghosts, he somehow managed to get involved in a murder, meet some crazy people (both metaphorically and literally) and almost die.

    *Main Ships: SanNa, SaboKoala, UssopKyla, Kohza/Vivi, Smoker/Tashigi and many other couples*

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    44,755
    Chapters:
    20/?
    Comments:
    196
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    178
    Bookmarks:
    23
    Hits:
    3633
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    My submissions for the 31 Days of Apex 2021 prompts on Twitter, give them a follow @31ApexDays

    Day 29: Shadow - Over Gibraltar’s life there has always been the shadow of his father’s greatness.

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    30/32
    Comments:
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    Bookmarks:
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    Alina Starkov is a Sun Summoner, born with the same powers, in the same world, and with the same destiny people narrated in the fables, and stories about a mythical Grisha who wielded light in her hands. However, at the young age of eleven, Alina’s life changes drastically and she has only two options: wither away in her own misery, or change accordingly to what life brought her. In a whirlwind of events she finds herself in Ketterdam, with a new name, new friends, new life, and only one aim: don’t let anybody know of her light. But her fate seems to be intended to rectify that, when a certain man clad in black comes knocking at her door asking for a favour.

    Or: I change almost everything of the Shadow and Bone trilogy and turn it into whatever I want it to be.

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    Chapters:
    12/?
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    57
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    Since the war, Yang Lee has been struggling with anger, alcohol, and drugs. After confessing their feelings, he gets into a relationship with his housemate, Ker. But his ex-friends don't approve and will do everything to make Lee's life a living hell.

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    Oh how the air is tense yet filled with a certain tension that lends more to fondness. Neither giving into the others off hand comment or taunts. Neither getting any closer than 3 inches. The two men who dance not only waltz together but dance a dance of inconvenience. An inconvenience to themselves, their affiliates and their feelings.

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    After the Avengers take Loki into their custody, Thor places a pair of handcuffs on Loki to keep him from using his magic to escape. Unfortunately, the cuffs actually expel his magic which hit each of the Avengers and give them each different types of his powers.

    Loki now has to stay close to the Avengers in order for the magic to slowly expel itself from the mortals and back to its rightful owner.

    Because if it doesn't, Loki will die.

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    Chapters:
    5/?
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    51
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    425
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    The mission had been to keep the two necromancers alive.

    Judith Deuteros and Harrowhark Nonagesimus face several setbacks while being transported to the BoE's headquarters.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    Percy Jackson had seen weird before.
    Swimming in the River Styx to gain invincibility to fight the Titan lord of time was "weird".
    Getting your memory wiped by the goddess of marriage and family in a gambit to unite Greek and Roman demigods was "weird".
    Having a spiritual attachment to blue food was... well... completely understandable, no matter how much Leo joked about it.
    But this? This is "weird".

     

    When a battle goes wrong, and magic goes wild, the son of Poseidon and Hero of Olympus finds himself dumped in a world that seems strangely familiar. The Greek Gods are still around, the old myths were really true, all seems well. But one thing has changed: the people he's come to love. And it doesn't take long for him to figure out that these new faces all miss someone else, too; Hero of Olympus, and daughter of Poseidon, Percie Jackson.

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    541,264
    Chapters:
    100/?
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    478
    Kudos:
    476
    Bookmarks:
    78
    Hits:
    21357
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    kokichi might be lonely, but pushing away people is necessary

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    Chapters:
    2/3
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    54
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    264
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    To defeat Trigon, Raven seeks a magic Dagger that would kill her and end the prophecy. Caught in the act she agrees to go on a quest with Beast Boy to see if they can't find a mythical item instead. On the journey, Raven confronts the feelings she has for Beast Boy, and more importantly, what could happen if she lives past 20.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    33,515
    Chapters:
    9/9
    Comments:
    14
    Kudos:
    22
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    858

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